I Got a Calling!!

I am now the 2nd counselor in the Primary Presidency. I am so excited!!! I am pretty sure I will ALWAYS have a calling in Primary. Whether it be a teacher, in the presidency, chorister, or nursery leader, I will have a Primary calling. When I am in Primary I feel at home and at peace. I can't wait to start really getting busy with my assignments. I teach Sharing Time for the first time on the 4th of July. I've already started working on my lesson. :)

Robert has been called as the secretary in the Elder's quorum presidency. Today was the first Sunday when we both had these callings and this has been our schedule.

6:30 - I woke up and got ready

7:30 - Woke Robert up, Robert got Lydia ready while I finished getting ready

8:00 - Fed Lydia

9:00-12:00 - Church

12:30-2 - I had Presidency Meeting and Robert did his home teaching

2:15-4:30 - Robert has Presidency Meeting

5:00 - We are having a couple friends over for dinner

7:00 - Robert has Stake Priesthood Meeting

It's been a fun Sunday, and I am sure we will have many more fun Sundays in store for us. It's quite the change from the Sundays we are used to when we spend every minute of the day together, even during church because we served as Primary teachers together. We'll get used to it though :)

When I Grow Up I Want to Be a Mother

People always talk about "The First Moment." How when you hold your first baby for the first time it's the most AMAZING, PERFECT, WONDERFUL, etc moment you will ever experience in this lifetime. How in the first few seconds you fall completely in love with your child and you finally really know what unconditional love feels like. Well, with all due respect to those people, that's not how it happened for me. Before you all get up in arms over how heartless I am, please hear me out. I don't think it all happens in that one moment. I think it's a culmination of the previous 9 months and the first couple of days in the hospital. Allow me to explain further...

I didn't start loving Lydia from the moment she was born. I started loving her a little before 3:00am September 9th 2009. It had been 5 months since Robert and I had stopped using "protection." My periods were a little irregular so every month I would think I might be pregnant only to find out that I wasn't. Much crying into Robert would follow and then the cycle would begin all over again. But on the morning of September 9th I woke up randomly just before 3 and needed to go potty. (TMI?) I debated whether or not I should do the pregnancy test right then. As I thought about it I rested my hand on my tummy. I was overcome with a feeling of, for lack of a better word, sweetness. I knew that Heavenly Father had finally blessed me with one of his children. A sweet little spirit that I could call my own. I quickly took a pregnancy test. It was positive. I ran into the bedroom, jumped on the bed, and turned on the light waking Robert up out of a dead sleep, and showed him the test. We both just smiled, and I laid back down and snuggled into Robert. He said "You're not going to be able to go back to sleep, are you?" I said, "Nope, probably not." And that's how the journey began.

Since then I have loved her more and more. When I saw her for the first time on the ultrasound, first felt her kick, when we found out she was a girl and knew what her name would be right away, every time we heard her heartbeat, as we got things ready for her to come, every step of the way I have loved her more and more.

Then I delivered her. When I first held her I wouldn't call it amazing or wonderful. If anything I would call it unreal and maybe even weird. My thought process was basically, "This is my daughter? She's actually here? I'm a mom? Is this just another vivid pregnancy dream? Nope, it can't be because that's definitely real pain from the doctor stitching up my tear. I'll just give her to the nurses now. She's kind of messy." I smiled a lot and cried a little because I always thought that was what you were supposed to do, but those were my thoughts.

After the nurses finished cleaning Lydia up, Robert got to hold her for the first time. If any "first moment" happened right after the birth, that was it for me. Watching the man I love and have chosen to spend forever with hold our precious little girl that we will also have forever, and being so overjoyed that he is finally a Daddy is a moment I will never forget.

Then they took Lydia to the nursery and I was moved to another room. For the first time in 9 months, I wasn't in the same place she was. I missed her right away and I couldn't wait until they would bring her back to me. When they finally did I held her in my arms and never wanted to let her go. She was mine. My sweet angel sent from heaven straight to Robert and me.

We spent the next couple of days admiring our sweet baby and showing her off to everyone we could. The first night I had them take her to the nursery so I could get some sleep. So our last night in the hospital was the first night I spent with Lydia. She was awake for a lot of the night, so I spent most of it pacing back and forth with her, rocking her, and singing her Primary songs. I was singing her songs like "I Am A Child of God" and "Families Can Be Together Forever" when I was overcome with emotion as I realized, this was it. I finally had started my eternal calling as a mother. With Robert, I would start raising a family in the Gospel. I thought of all I had done in my life to prepare myself for this - starting with the basic Gospel principles I learned in Primary, then everything I learned and the skills I improved through Young Womens, learning everything I could from my Mom, sisters, and the rest of my family, preparing and keeping myself worthy to enter the temple, and finding a righteous Priesthood holder who had also prepared himself to enter the temple and to be a good husband and father, and living my life in a way that he would want to choose me to be his wife. I thought I would be scared, but I'm not. I'm a mom. I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father has blessed me with this eternal calling.

Lydia will depend on me (and Robert) for everything. There will be trials, and it will be really hard work at times, but I already feel how rewarding of a work it is and will continue to be.

I'm a mom. I'm finally a mom!

A Baby Story

Well here it goes :) Wednesday morning I started feeling pains in my back where I have cramps when I'm on my period. I kept thinking "maybe these are what real contractions feel like" but they weren't that hard so I passed them off as just pregnancy aches and pains. We went to our doctor's appointment that afternoon. He checked me and I was barely dilated to a 1 and "just starting" to efface. He predicted I would probably not deliver until my due date (May 19th) or even a couple of days after. I told him about the pains in my back and by the way I described them he also passed them off as just aches and pains.

When we got home the pains started to increase in intensity and frequency. They would start in my back and spread to my front. At 3:00pm I decided that they were regular enough and hurt enough that maybe I should time them. Sure enough, they were every 10 minutes apart. (I count 3:00 as the start of my labor) they continued that way until 7:00pm. Then they started to pick up in speed and intensity. By 9:00 they were every 5-7 minutes and lasting about a minute each. At 10:00 they were about 4 minutes apart. We were getting ready to go to the hospital and all of the sudden they slowed back down to 8 minutes apart, but they were still really consistent. We decided to not go to the hospital unless they picked back up again. I couldn't sleep they were so intense. So I stayed up and paced around and breathed through each contraction. At 3:00am they were back to 5 minutes apart so we went to the hospital. When they checked me I was still 1 cm dilated, and I was 70% effaced. They monitored me for an hour and I had no change so they sent me home. I've decided, fewer things are more disappointing than being sent home from the hospital when you think you are going to have your baby.

I still couldn't sleep because of the contractions, but I rested as much as I could. All morning the contractions stayed 5 to 8 minutes apart, but then they'd randomly slow down to 10-15 minutes apart for a few contractions, then they'd pick back up again. It was frustrating. My sister, Melissa, got here at about 1:00pm yesterday. (I'm really happy now that they sent me home the first night so that she was able to make it for the actual delivery. I don't know what we would have done without her.) Once she got here we decided to have me do some exercise to see if we could make the contractions increase. I ran up and down stairs, worked out on Wii Fit :), and even...

Yes, I swung on a swing set. With all of this the contractions would pick up while I was doing it, but as soon as I stopped they would start slowing down again. At 10:00pm we decided to all go to bed since it looked like nothing was going to happen too soon. But as soon as I laid down the contractions got SUPER intense. Once again, there was no way I was going to be able to sleep. I got up and got in a warm bath and right away things started to pick up. For 2 hours they were really hard and 3-4 and a half minutes apart and lasting about a minute and a half to 2 minutes each. I really didn't want to go to the hospital only to be sent home again, but finally at 12:30am I woke Robert up and he woke up Melissa and we all went to the hospital. They checked me and I was a little more than 1cm dilated and still 70% effaced. My thought was, GREAT, we're going to be sent home again. They monitored me for an hour, checked me again and I was barely 2cm and 80% effaced. Normally if you don't dilate a whole centimeter in an hour they send you home, but since I had dilated and effaced they decided to monitor me for a half hour more. They checked me again and I was almost 3cm, so they admitted me. FINALLY!

For the next few hours the contractions continued to get more and more intense. I WAS EXHAUSTED! It had been since Tuesday night that I had really gotten any sleep. I wanted to do the birth unmedicated, but it got to the point that even with Melissa's and Robert's support, which was AMAZING, I was so tired I couldn't focus enough on anything that would keep me relaxed. I also knew that unless I got some sleep I would never be able to get through the last and most painful part of the labor with enough strength to push. So, at 4:00am I asked for an epidural. I was TERRIFIED of the thought of having a huge needle so close to my spine, but Melissa held my hand and talked me through the whole thing. After I got it, I would laugh every time I would have a contraction at how weird it was that I could feel the tightness of it, but no more pain. I am now a fan of epidurals :)

We all slept for about 2 and a half hours. They checked me at 6:30am and I was 4cm dilated and 90% effaced. An hour later, 7:30am, I started to think that maybe my epidural was wearing off because I started to feel a lot of pain, but the nurse checked me and I was 9cm dilated and 100% effaced!!! It happened so fast! An hour later, 8:30am, she checked me again and I was complete. She talked me through some pushes and once I was to the point that the doctor should be there she went to get him, but he was in the room next to me delivering another baby, so I was told to wait as long as I could. An hour or so later he got there and I pushed through a few more contractions and at 10:32am our little Lydia Ann Richardson was born :)

She is a miracle. She is beautiful. We love her, and we are happy. I'll post again soon on our thoughts of the birth since the birth.

And now some pictures of the whole event for your viewing enjoyment :)

It's only a matter of time...

The Tulip Festival

Yesterday, my husband proved once again how absolutely wonderful he is. Yesterday morning I got a text from the people that were buying our contract saying that they were sorry, but they weren't going to be able to follow through. Our plan is to move tomorrow, so this stressed me out quite a bit because this means that we now have 2 rents to pay starting May 1st. (We are still looking for someone so please continue to spread the word.) Anyway, between the stress of moving and cleaning and doing this while pregnant, and with this added stress of money, I basically had a breakdown. I crawled into bed and just started sobbing uncontrollably. Robert came in after a couple minutes and instead of trying to "fix it" or make me talk about it, he just held me and let me sob into him. I think I just needed a good cry. Once the tears started to subside he says, "I know what we should do today. Let's go look at and take pictures of tulips." Those who know me best know how much tulips brighten any day for me. So off we went to the Tulip Festival at Thanksgiving Point.

Those of you who don't know what the Tulip Festival is, Thanksgiving Point is a place half way between Provo and Salt Lake and every year they plant 250,000 tulips and when the tulips bloom they have a 2 week long festival. In the Thanksgiving Point Gardens there are several differently designed gardens with pretty walkways in between each garden and they are all beautiful!

The Italian Garden.

Robert's first comment when he saw this yellow tulip was "There's a Mormonad saying in there somewhere." :)

Robert's first comment when he saw these upside down tulips was, "What in the world kind of freak of nature of a tulip is this?"

We got a kick out of feeding these fish :)

This is the entrance to The Secret Garden. Songs and quotes from the musical "The Secret Garden" were running through my head the whole time we were inside it :) Even when I look at this picture I am thinking "There it is. There's the door. There's the door to the garden!"

Inside The Secret Garden

It's finally happened, I've turned into a tulip :)

Robert is such a trooper. We both enjoyed the festival, but I think I had a little more fun than he did :) We were there for about 2 hours, and I took almost 80 pictures. He would patiently wait as I would take several pictures of one tulip until I got it just right. He even pointed out a few that he thought I might want a picture of. I LOVE this boy!!!

Weekend Adventures - Bonfire

After spending most of Saturday with Robert's parents and then dropping them off and saying our goodbyes at the airport. We met up with some friends that night that had come into town for our friends', Ben and Ashley's wedding, and we went up to Bridal Veil Falls and had a bonfire.

First, the dried up Christmas tree. I don't know what possessed us to trust Ty and Kaci with the matches, but somehow, we survived.

Here is the tree at the peak of it's flame. From the time it was lit to the point where it had burned itself out was 60 seconds, maybe 2 minutes max. But, I'm not going to lie, I was scared to death the whole time that it was going to catch something else on fire. I could just see the news headlines running through my head. But just as soon as it started, it was over, and everything was fine.

Devin, Autumn, and Lizzy joined us after the tree burning for the regular fire and the marshmallow roasting. Autumn had made a seat out of the extra wood, but unfortunately it collapsed. I gave Devin a hard time for looking so not concerned about the well being of his girlfriend, but I was the one that instead of making sure she was okay, I grabbed my camera and took a picture. Silly me :)

Lizzy and Autumn were getting a little chilly, so they snuggled with each other. I love how sad Autumn looks versus how happy Lizzy looks. It makes me laugh.

It was a fun night of relaxing, story telling, and singing around the fire. We all had a great time.

Weekend Adventures - Robert's Graduation Part 2

Friday morning we had Robert's Convocation. This is where he is actually handed his Degree, or at least the envelope for it.

Here Robert is processing in.

This is Robert getting his degree envelope. The dumb cameraman was right in the wrong spot!! He better have taken a good picture.

Bloated and VERY pregnant me with my graduate.

And Robert with his wonderful parents. It was so fun to have them here for the weekend.

Now it's bragging time. Robert graduated Magna Cum Laude (top 5% of the almost 7000 graduates) and #1 in the Statistics Program. He graduated from the College of Physical and Mathematical Sciences with a Bachelor of Science in Statistics with an Actuarial Science focus. He made the Dean's List 3 different times (maybe 4, we don't know if he made it this past semester yet), AND it only took him 3 years instead of the usual 4 to get his Bachelor. I'm so proud of him!!

Weekend Adventures - Robert's Graduation Part 1

Last Thursday Robert had his graduation commencement. It was wonderful, and surprisingly short and not boring. It was awe inspiring to see all of the BYU graduates together at the same time, and I was very honored and proud that my husband was one of them.

Can you find Robert? I sent this to my little sisters, and they insist that he isn't even in the picture, but he is. I promise!

Elder Christofferson spoke. He only took 15 minutes, but it was a 15 minutes well spent :)

Me and my graduate. Ain't he cute!?!

That night, Robert's parents flew in from Mesa, AZ to Salt Lake and we spent the evening with them at Temple Square. It was quite enjoyable :)

Contract for Sale... Again!

The people that were buying our contract just fell through. The new tenant can move in as early as May 3rd. The contract expires August 16th with the option to renew. It's a 1 bedroom, 1 bath, with large front/family room for $575 a month which includes all utilities, including cable and internet, except for electricity which for us averaged $20/month. Located on the southeast corner of 100 S and 200 E in Provo. Great neighbors! Great ward!! No smoking or pets. The people who were going to buy our contract just fell through. We are needing to sell ASAP.

Front room view from front door

Front room, different view

Kitchen

Bathroom (with full bath tub and shower)

Bedroom

New Adventures

Like I said in the last post, we found a new place!! We are very excited about it. Robert's cousin and his wife were selling their contract and it was exactly what we were looking for! I stole the pictures of it off their blog (Thanks, by the way :)

We'll be moving the 1st of May, or should I say, Robert will be moving and my 37 and a half week self will be watching and giving instructions :) We have a lot to do between now and then, but my sister Christi and her husband Ryan were here this past weekend and helped us get a head start on our kitchen, and I already, during my nesting phase, have gone through most of the apartment and cleaned out and organized everything. We also have plenty of friends that are willing to help, so I'm not stressing too much about it... yet :)

This does mean we are leaving our ward :'( I've loved our ward!! We've made so many friends and memories. But we feel it is what we need to do. We haven't decided whether we will still do the family ward or if we'll go to the BYU married ward. We think we're going to go to both and then decide. This past Sunday was a great last Fast Sunday in our ward. Testimony meeting was AMAZING!! And the cherry on top was that toothbrush boy returned! He bore a very memorable testimony our first Sunday in the ward after we got married, and I thought it was quite fitting that he would get up our last fast Sunday in the ward and say the following:

"I think it's great that God loves us. It doesn't matter what we do, He will ALWAYS love us. Even if we blew up the whole city. It would make Him sad, but He would still love us. And that's all I gotta say." And he sat down :) Classic.

Anyway, we have a lot of adventures coming in the near future - Robert's graduation, moving, baby, new ward etc etc etc - and I anxiously await all of them!

And remember, God ALWAYS loves us!!

Toxemia

Well, Friday we had a doctor's appointment. Turns out in the past month I put on 13 pounds which is twice as much as I'm supposed too. So they had me do a urine sample, which no matter how many times I do those I will always feel awkward peeing in a cup, and there was a small trace of protein in my urine. This means that I have a little bit of toxemia. My blood pressure was still fine, so the doctor said that for now all I have to do is cut as much sodium out of my diet as possible, drink a TON of water, and start coming in every week so they can monitor it closely. When he said that I should cut out the salt, I looked at Robert and we both laughed. Salt and vinegar chips have been my favorite thing lately. In fact, the day before the appointment I ate half of a big bag of them in one sitting :) So, just cutting those out might do the trick. But I am being very careful and checking the sodium content of everything that I eat. Also, the first thing that Robert did when we got home was this...

The doctor said to just leave the salt shaker in the cupboard. In true Robert fashion, he took it to the next level and put all of our salt on top of the cupboards and forbade me from getting on a stool and getting them down. He is so silly. Anyway, I am missing all of my salty foods, but I only have a few more weeks to go, and I'll do whatever is best for Lydia and me!

Baby Shower

We had my baby shower in Mesa, AZ this past weekend and it was so much fun. My sisters and mom did such an amazing job with the food and decorations and everything. They are AWESOME!! My favorite part was just being able to see so many people I haven't seen in a long time. I love my friends and family!! Here are some pictures from the glorious event that I yoinked from my sister's blog. Thanks Tiff!! ;)

This is my adorable niece, Alena. I hope Lydia is blessed to have as much beautiful hair as she does :)

FOOD!! It was all amazing. My sister-in-law, Becky, even made sure that I had my very own chocolate milk.

This is the hand quilted blanket my Grandma Hall made. She has made one for every grandchild and great grandchild. That's quite the accomplishment seeing as how she has 26 (I think??) grandchildren and Lydia will be her 62nd great grandchild. My grandma is amazing!! I still have my blanket. It looks just like Lydia's, but it's red.

This is my little sister (green shirt) and 3 of my nieces. I can't believe how old they are all getting!

PRESENTS!!!

P.S. Everyone is FIRED for not telling me how retarded the part of my hair was looking the whole time!

This is a cradle that Robert's brother, Terrel, and his wife Jenn made for us. It's beautiful!

And that about sums it up. It was a great day filled with smiles and pink :)